December 4, 2008

Debt

When people ask me why I started stripping, I tell them that I have credit card debt and student loans to pay off -

which is true, but also the easy answer. I never mention the stuff about the breakup, which was a result of my changed views on sex and relationships. I don't mention that my father is dying, I don't add that I have the inability to cope with feelings. And I certainly don't talk about my discovery that vulnerability equals money.

But yes - I have debt. Too much for a girl my age.

So, although I've been making money as a stripper, I don't feel like it. 

Every night, after I work a shift, I go straight to the bank to deposit the cash into my account. I am constantly paying back my debt. I just want to get it over with.